This week I received an email from LHAA
(Living Hope Adoption Agency) about some children coming to the states for a 5
week visit that needed sponsored. This
is the agency we used to adopt Kate, so I enjoy getting updates on events and
children joining their forever families.
So this was no different than other emails that I would read and then
delete. Each day that week the email
kept popping into my head. I didn’t
think much of it till the 4th or 5th day I just had this
feeling there was reason. My first
reaction was Oh no Lord you are not calling us to adopt are you! I love my four children but four kids is a
nice number, two girls and two boys make it even sweeter. Lee and I never talked about more than four
children. Five children crossed the line into a large family. I’d like to say my first reaction was a happy
one, but it wasn’t. I kept it to myself
for a day or two thinking nah I’m just reading into it. It’s not the Holy Spirit talking. Lee and I are not getting any younger and I
already feel old when I go to elementary events with Kate.
That weekend Lee and I were on a couples cycle riding trip. It popped into my mind as we had time alone
on the bike and I wondered should I say anything to Lee. Would he be wow you are out of your mind or
would he be well maybe. It felt more
comfortable asking him while we were on the cycle and he couldn’t look me in
the eyes and say you are crazy. I wasn’t
even sure how I wanted him to answer. So
I got up the courage and said Lee you are going to think I’m nuts but I think
God might be calling us to adopt again.
I broke into tears with Lee’s response.
He said yes I’ve been feeling the call again too. Then he had me reeling as he said call the
agency on Monday. I still had serious
doubts and ask for a couple weeks to pray and mull over it.
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